HI PEOPLE!!

I dont think i can get used to tumblr, so i am sticking to old school:) I also cant keep track how many view my blog. i mean like its always good to know if anyone is reading my blog, quite no use if no one reads, cos afterall this was created to help friends in a morbid way and plus let them think deep along with me. So we last left off in june. So far away. 4 months on... how am i? pretty much same same. So this hols i had 5 camps in 6 weeks, some were pure ugh-ish. some were just great fun with great company. One unforgettable one with unforgettable groupmates was IDARE camp, we went to malaysia for this adventure camp organise by my faculty,BA. did flying fox,paintball, white water rafting, 4 wheel drive, repelling (or however u spell it). My fav? 4 wheel drive. though i got cut on my face. it was worth it, a super bumpy ride flying up and down, being on top of the mountain. Its just beautiful. u have to really be there to experience it. we drove to this cold cold waterfall. All the guys scream when we entered cos ya..you know. hha ha. This camp is different becos you bond before during and after camp. that makes it amazing. My group is truly unique. they are just so lovely and fun. I like the friendship i have made there. To be honest, when i first got the group i was like Oh shit, not good. no IBZ! :O i guess sometimes its really easy to cocoon oneself up into the world of familiarity. but this camp make me break that. I took the plunge and made amazing friends. Most epic moment? darren had his balls smash by a balloon during balloon catapult. Actually too many epic moments.

4 months on, i think that i have learned really quite alot. i get reminded again thru events how impt it is sometimes that the heart and mind must connect esp when it comes to relationships. today was quite a touching day. My grandfather talked to me in broken sentences. but its rare to hear him talk like that. he usually stares blankly cos of dementia, he doesn't remember well. i think he doesn't know who i am. its saddening. But he spoke to me, it was real emotional to me. watched him struggle with words, i keep nodding even though i hardly get it. but i think i got the gist of what he was driving at. an important lesson to me. oh wells, i still recall the days, he would drive me to buy ice cream or to the wet market to eat porridge at uncle joe's porridge shop. he would teach me how to cool a hot porridge. memories remain strong in my mind. its those times when ur small u just expect them to be the same throughout, but suddenly things do happen. they change,not intentionally but naturally and inevitably. its the inevitable change that most of us must deal with. i end with a quote which i just heard today from venerable chodron.

When we want to change ourselves, we should change to become someone that we will respect and not someone that people say you should be:) click below for rest of post:)

                                                                                 CCA. IBZ. Friends